Palpitation

My day immediately turned into grey colour this morning right after i stepped into office. I'm suppose to be re-borned after my GoldCoast trip but all the bad news approaching too fast. I don't even have time to digest it. I'm not only worry about myself becoming jobless anytime soon, but i'm worrying about the company too. Now the thing is there's nothing i can do or help, i feel damn bad and miserable. 

The weather of Singapore is super cooperative too, keep raining since last week and it's totally reflecting our mood wtf. Boss are having meeting with all the creditors now, all of us doing nothing here, only left with palpitation and gen zheong-ness. The feeling is like riding on a roller coaster.

My whatsapp keeps ringing, all from industry people. Especially those that i'm not close with come and kepo with our situation now. Some even worst, people that seldom say hello to me come and ask for lunch or dinner, how good you guys are, u idiot just want to dig information FYL!! Some fake people act concern, asking did i get any new job or else they can help. Hello, thank you very much lo, i'm now still working and don't try to dig info from me KNS!! At this moment, i can see clearly who is the real human and who is the ghost. In fact, when u are drawning, most of the people helping u by throwing the stones. That's reality. 

I wanted to upload my GC photos since i'm super free now but i feel inappropriate cause i'm seriously not in the mood. In the other hand i feel there's a need to upload because people now are stalking our facebook, i'm 100% sure for this. Uploading photos is one of the way of telling people "Hey, i'm perfectly fine and don't bullshit me. The condition of company now is not as bad as u think cause i still can happily went for my vacation. So stop spreading all the unnecessary rumours!!~"

Can't believe i need to come across all these. I'm just an employee here, i can leave the company anytime to look for new job but i didn't. Not because i love my job so much just because i can't just leave like that. Maybe i couldn't help much but at least i still remember who brought me here to this industry, who brought me here so that i am who i am now and who brought me to Singapore so that i am earning sing dollar. I know i am now in the deep shit and further deep shit for next few months especially if *touch wood* i jobless. Anyhow, i'm still here to support my company my boss.

Getaway from Singapore - Lang Tengah Island

Celebrated Hari Raya at my own county, Malaysia~!!! Feel HOME..... wtf >.< In fact i did pass by my hometown just never stop by only ma....hehe.

Well.....I went Lang Tengah Island, located in between Redang Island & Perhentian Island, Terengganu with Egui. The trip organized by my senior Min Hui, total of 16 people, 14 divers and 2 snorkelers. It's a dive trip actually but it's not a real dive trip for me. The trip was a birthday gift for Egui,  Anyway, he can't dive so half of the trip we were snorkeling. He was excited because it's his very first island trip and he never snorkel on the sea before this. I'm proud of myself, i made history in his life *shy* LOL~ I think i influenced him, he actually enjoyed the beach boy life and decided to take diving course next year..... maybe. *shy again*wuahahaha!!

Okay, back to the trip. I did 2 dives, to be honest the dives were so-so only, nothing fantastic nothing amazing. Min Hui actually told me i already did the best dive for the whole trip which is deep dive. Not because i been to Sipadan before, i will never compare Peninsula water with East Malaysia water lo. Is because the underwater community is not so diverse even compare with Tioman Island. Thank god diving was not the main reason for me joining the trip, otherwise rather disappointing.

Anyway, one thing i love about Lang Tengah is the water. I was surprised that we have such clean water at east coast, the visibility is up to 10m. Just curious how come clean water has lesser underwater creatures, weird.... The beach is very clean, not much activities but very relaxing place if you wanna have short break on the beach.

See~ The crystal clear water~!!

The beach, this is the famous "Love You You" resort. We were staying beside this resort which is much more cheaper LOL

Gear up, ready to dive!!

My uh-hmm "leng zai" senior, self vomit =_="

One of the common fish at Lang Tengah, NEMO~

 

One of the best shoot

I performed my "magic hand" here  =P

Time for snorkeling, basically i turn into darker skin cause of snorkeling

Best photo of the trip, didn't know i still look good underwater... hahaha!! i know, i beh paiseh

Last one, "chao da* couple ^_^

Down

Something very very bad happened

Which is totally out of my expectation

Never thought about this would happen

I can't tell i can't share

The situation is unclear, everything is unknown

I'm worry but there's nothing can be done at the moment

Move on or not, no one can answer me

The only thing can do is wait wait and wait

Waiting patiently for an answer and prepare for the worst

This is horrible and scary

If thing goes wrong, my life will be effected 

I don't have any backup plan for this

Just follow the flow i guess?