REAL OR FAKE??

How to tell a person is being real or fake to you? I seriously can't tell. Since i joined bunker, people around keep telling me.....
*don't trust people easily
*you are being too transparent
*you must build up your defense wall
*you gonna hurt yourself soon

All above..... i do understand very well. But for me there's always an exception. There's someone that i trusted so much in bunker industry, name her as M. I always believed that M is different and she's my true friend in bunker. We always had the same thinking (i thought), business is business - friendship is friendship. We both agreed on this (i thought).

But things getting complicated when both business and friendship link together. For me there's always a clear cut between business and friendship. Whatever happen on business got nothing to do with friendship ma, that's simple right? In fact.... i'm wrong.

Whatever shit happens in business is 100% affecting to your friendship lo~ Yes, now i know..... im too NAIVE back then. Some bad experience on business with M ultimately ruined our friendship. From that onwards, M who always real and pure hearted (i thought) changed to someone that i hardly recognize and fake.

There's something that i couldn't understand. M was being nice to be from beginning to have a smooth business or she had changed after things went wrong on business? It's totally a chicken and egg thing i guess.... So when is real when is fake??! Heck knows.....

Perhaps, i shouldn't but too much of my personal feelings on it. If i never built up the bond then i will never get hurt.

LESSON OF THE YEAR - DO NOT TRUST ANYONE IN BUNKER

Gonna tell myself this.... WELCOME TO BUNKER!! After a year i am here.... wtf~!! After all.... im still upset about this T_T

After long silence

When i wrote my last post 7 months ago, it's only few months i joined bunker industry. Now is coming to a year and i'm still struggling, learning and enjoying here. It's just like a story book with endless climax for me. Is a good sign i guess, at least i don't feel bored and wanted to leave yet.

I didn't really look at my blog since then and i feel totally weird-ed out when i read my previous entries. I feel like i was a different person back then with so much of freedom and dreams. Now its all about trading, operating, marketing, socializing and making money for company wtf. However, i have decided to pick up my blog again. Because it does help me to think and remind me who am i, the real me. Even though there are not many people reading my blog... LOL

Well .......im kinda losing myself for the past one year.I have to admit that my career is making a big changes on me. From nothing to something, simple minded person to someone who over-think for every single thing, unrealistic to realistic, unmaterialistic to materialistic. Please allow me to say this, is quite impossible to stay unchanged with my working environment and also the people that i surrounded with. Is not a good thing for sure, but is not a bad thing either to expose myself and experience the real world when im still "young"? Haha... yes, i consider myself young, always~!

Anyway, i just shifted to Monkey Island 2 weeks ago with Egui. There's a long list of "to be done" agenda waiting for me......sigh~