What A Day

Super FRUSTRATING~!!!

Yesterday someone just sms me out of the blue saying that "ur life seems not bad huh, until totally forget about me"

I was like "huh?? where got?"

The she continued "i text u when i was in the hospital, but end up no reply since then"

I was struggled in my mind, sound familiar but couldn't remember at all. So i faster checked my whatsapp and...... SHIT~!!! there's a whatsapp from her saying that she was in hospital!! HOW COULD I NOT REMEMBER AND NEVER REPLY?!! At the moment i hate myself to the max cause what kind of friend i am. Therefore i apologized and apologized and apologized.... of course came out with all sort of excuses also la =P

Me "owh sorry.... paiseh~ I was on duty that week busy til no time pee ar.... (In fact, this always happened, never lie) After that really forget jor.....sorry la, don't mad.....so how was it? now recover le?"

Her replied " Nvm la, at lease i know where is my position now. Recovered, it has been 2 weeks ago so im recovered." 

Then i continued apologized "sorry la, my mistake =( Was really busy and stress up by work til last weekend had a short break then only ok abit. Ok.... i know is not an excuse.....sorry la.....sayang sayang back k?"

Then i felt something not right? Even a hi-bye friend telling me that he/she not feeling well i also will send my regards la. How could i forget about her? So i re-checked the whatsapp. Then i found out the whatsapp was sent at 3am!!!

Hello~!!! Who the hell can remember what i read at the middle of then on my half way of beauty sleep then the next day can remember clearly de?? Don't mention that i was on duty and already not enough sleep and worry about my schedule?? Anyway.... forgot means forgot so i know partly is my fault also.

Me "u sent me that time is 3am ler, i woke up read liao slept back, the next day really couldn't remember ar. but i never forget u la"

Her "is fine"

Me "=( "

Her "Because we really have diversion after uni, couldnt blame if it doesnt works well, people are growing n heading to different directions."

Me "walao..... how come sounds lesbian to me?? eh, don't like that ler (thought that she's REALLY FINE le) "

Her "Best friend won't stay as well, i accepted the fact"

Me "Zzzzzzzzzzzz.....don't think too much la. Im busy here and we have different direction doesn't mean we cannot be best friend de ma"

Her "Topic ended"

Me "What??"

Her "Wasting time to discuss this as both of us are so busy. Anyway is good to know u are safe and alive, gtg"

Me "Alright, u take care. Really sorry about that"

I'm now hating myself for saying sorry again in the last msg..... for what??!! Apologizes were not accepted also. How sarcastic a person can be?? Gosh~!!! Out of so many hours in a day, why must you came out with this conversation at my busiest hour, trading time. You know that i was busy that time~!! Can u imagine how frustrated i was after going through all these??


Best part is..... my day ended with something interesting. A coursemate who never meet for years and not so close with marine family told me that she actually complained me to him OFTEN back in uni. Just happened that we had coffee session last night. What a day!!

Honest speaking, i can understand if u mad at me for not replying your 3am's whatsapp especially when u are not feeling well and u need a friend to stay with u. But is there a need to end the conversation that way?? After my.... let me count.... FOUR TIMES OF SAYING SORRY? If u are insisting with your "sorry is no cure" philosophy, please go ahead.

Food of May

These are part of the food i had in the month of May. One thing i love about my job is i can have endless delicious and yummilicious food!! Most important is all the food is FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

Well..... is not that i work for free food, just that this is part of my job. Don't get me wrong, im not a food tester lol. Just because i need to entertain customers very often and i don't like to chill-out at the bar or club like what others do. I prefer to chill-out with my friends instead of customers lo. Chill-out suppose to be relax ma, if facing customers i have to be alert all the time. I know i know, free alcohol who doesn't want? Yes, i don't want!! Therefore.... here comes all the nice food [=

If given a choice i will definitely buy my customers breakfast/brunch/lunch/dinner. There are so many types of food i can choose but alcohol is only alcohol lo, no matter what brand u are. Hence.... food vs alcohol, food won~!! LOL..... FOC (full of crap).

Just found out this month i actually ent lesser compare with previous month. Maybe too many things happened until i'm afraid of meeting people. Anyhow, will try to go out more and hunt for more food next month =P

Seems like im more into western food and also more to a dessert person. But seriously, this whole month don't know what's wrong with me. I'm constantly crave for pancakes until my colleague said im crazy =D

I should have list down all the yummilicious food's name and also location but paiseh la..... i basically forgot ALL the name and forgot part of the location too. Punch myself.... useless!! Will TRY to remember next time, TRY only.... wuahaha!!

TGIF!!

Thank God Is FRIDAYYYYYY~!!! Sorry to show my sleepy face, this photo was taken in the bus when i was on the way to work. Today is casual day, hence.....dress down!!

OMG~!! See my puffy chubby face, cannot take it!! But heck care, im going to Penang and meet my girls soon. Counting down, 8 more dayssssss. Food food food, im coming coming coming =D

Btw, i bought bubble bars for the trip. Hopefully there's a bath tub in the bathroom so that i can have my bubble bath. Of course, i got some for my girls too ❤❤

-Workout Workout-

Hungry~!!!! Im damn hungry now.....

Because..... i went swimming this early morning at 7am!! Always get hungry easily after swimming, I woke up at 6.45am, walked around 10min to Fitness First @ George One. Yes, i signed up for gym.... again. Took two weeks to decide which fitness center to join, True Fitness or Fitness First. End up i go for Fitness First which is most expensive within the 3 famous club in SEA.

Here are the reasons...

• Swimming pool is a must for me, so California Fitness is definitely out from the list.
• I love my tan skin so i love open air swimming pool. True Fitness @ Suntec have a huge outdoor swimming pool and i love it. But.... i need to walk for 8-10min to reach the pool cause it's at different side of the building. And..... i need to exchange the pool card at the entrance of club (which is another side of the building) with my membership cards then only can proceed to the pool. Means every time i need to walk at least 15min to get and return the card. The worse part, shower room at pool area don't have water heater.....sigh~
• Swimming pool at Fitness First is relatively small, only 25m long. It's a indoor pool though which not the one i really want. But they have temperature control for the water, so it's forever warm. They are damn smart!! After all is hard for me to decide according to the swimming pool.
• Then..... I don't really use the equipments, i don't run i don't need to build up muscle so i don't need a spacious gym place.
• Normally i go to classes such as yoga, zumba, bodystep etc etc. Preferably have hot yoga. So yoga studio is a must too. Both clubs have all the classes that i want.
• Bathroom must be clean, at least don't make me feel nauseous and feel comfortable while using it.
• Sauna is important too. Since paying so much of course i prefer to have both dry and wet sauna. But the biggest True Fitness in Singapore have a very small dry sauna which can barely fit 3-4 people. Moreover, they only have dry sauna.This point, Fitness First win!
• Of course i didn't choose the club cause of the sauna la. Here comes the most important part. Payment!
• Im a foreigner here so i can't apply credit card with my current income. So i only have debit visa card. To sign up 2 years of True fitness all club (u can go all their fitness center in singapore) is about SGD 72 a month. Is actually reasonable for me but....... the don't accept installment payment by visa debit. So they requested me to pay one lump sum which is ard SGD 1800. For god sake where to find so much of cash?!!
• Then they gave me option 2 which is sign up for 1 year with giro payment so ard SGD 100 a month plus if not mistaken. 
•  For Fitness First, it's forever more expensive cause of the service provided there. They provide towel as what others club do and they provide attire as well. So basically i don't need to bring anything =]
• It's SGD 118 a month for 1 year vip membership (valid for all club in the world) and they allow me to pay monthly by debit card. Since both also over 100 bucks of course i go for the better service one lar.

Here I am started with my gym this week. I believe this is the good start for me since i always wanted to have a balance life here. Will keep it on~!!

I'm having a very smooth ops week!

I'm having a very smooth ops week~
I'm having a very smooth ops week~
I'm having a very smooth ops week~
I'm having a very smooth ops week~
I'm having a very smooth ops week~
I'm having a very smooth ops week~
I'm having a very smooth ops week~
I'm having a very smooth ops week~
I'm having a very smooth ops week~
I'm having a very smooth ops week~

 The law of attraction, that's all i can do for my coming operation week =]

I'm Just Me~

All the while i have been wanting to be/look perfect, or at least good. No matter outlook or personality, work wise or private, in front of customers or colleagues, to my parents or friends. But..... i always fail to become one, just simply because there's nothing perfect. Instead of forcing myself to be perfect, then i choose the easier way, just to accept who i am.

That's for sure sometimes i got upset when someone told me that..... "Wow~ u put on lots of weight recently hor",  "Owh dear, i think u need to learn how to put on some make up", "I suggest u to put on braces lo, your teeth are too ugly ler, how to see people like that?", "How come u always look like a school girl? should dress up more often ma"...... bla bla bla!

After i groomed myself..... a bit, then people start saying "Wow~ u changed liao, is not the old u anymore", "Why wanna spend so much for self grooming?", "Wah~ someone now rich liao lo, buy expensive bag"....... bla bla bla!

Or sometimes i heard these..... "Wah~ your England so good hor? (that's the sarcastic way of singaporean teasing someone about their poor english, but i find out their pronunciation also a bit weird though LoL)", "Why are u so quiet? how to become a trader if u don't talk?" Then i try to talk more end up the feedback was "Don't talk so much especially the thing that u not sure, rumours spread damn fast in this industry and u are creating trouble".....

People who saying all these is not the same person and also might not from the same group. But you see what i mean? There's no way to become perfect and good in everybody's eyes, cause everyone has different perception.

Therefore, i make up or not is non of your business. I wanna open my mouth and talk or not is my choice. I wanna be nice to you or not, depends on your luck =P . Am i different with the previous me, i think doesn't affect u at all. I buy expensive things, yeah right..... i never send my bil to u, isn't it? If im being fake to u, then please ask yourself what have u done earlier.

Well.....

I'm not PRETTY to you but this is not your problem

I'm not PERFECT to you but i don't think u are perfect either

I'm not FAKE and i'm glad about that

I'm just ME

So......

You either accept me as who i am or get lost.

Argh~!!!

I hate myself today!! How can i do such silly mistake?? Unforgivable!!

Okay, this gonna ruin my whole day. FML