Escape Plan

Air tickets BOOKED~!! I had bought 3 return tickets for the next 6 months and all the tickets bought within 2 weeks. OMG~!!! Can't believe i actually did that wtf >.<

April was a stressful, desperate and emo month for me. Too many things happened so i need to escape. The best way to escape of course is TRAVEL. Hence.......

2nd - 4th June : Penang short trip with SATC!!! Owh.... Miss them muchie muchie~

23rd - 28th August : Gold Coast with Egui. I miss OZ badly ever since my Melb trip @ 2010. Anyway, this is not a couple trip, i prefer more people. So anyone interested pls buzz me =) Sounds like i have lot of readers but in fact, i don't have..... LOL

18th - 21st October : Bangkok with Rachael!! This one really booked under "chong dong-ness". After we booked then only we found out it's actually on our SIBCON week. This time we sure die super ugly. Either we take 2 days leave with lots of nagging or..... we gonna burn the ticket. 

June-Aug-Oct, well spread~!! Hopefully i don't need to burn any ticket again. My kk ticket already burned sob sob, so PLEASE PLEASE PLEAS~

So the thing i need to do from now on is..... SAVE $$$

REAL OR FAKE??

How to tell a person is being real or fake to you? I seriously can't tell. Since i joined bunker, people around keep telling me.....
*don't trust people easily
*you are being too transparent
*you must build up your defense wall
*you gonna hurt yourself soon

All above..... i do understand very well. But for me there's always an exception. There's someone that i trusted so much in bunker industry, name her as M. I always believed that M is different and she's my true friend in bunker. We always had the same thinking (i thought), business is business - friendship is friendship. We both agreed on this (i thought).

But things getting complicated when both business and friendship link together. For me there's always a clear cut between business and friendship. Whatever happen on business got nothing to do with friendship ma, that's simple right? In fact.... i'm wrong.

Whatever shit happens in business is 100% affecting to your friendship lo~ Yes, now i know..... im too NAIVE back then. Some bad experience on business with M ultimately ruined our friendship. From that onwards, M who always real and pure hearted (i thought) changed to someone that i hardly recognize and fake.

There's something that i couldn't understand. M was being nice to be from beginning to have a smooth business or she had changed after things went wrong on business? It's totally a chicken and egg thing i guess.... So when is real when is fake??! Heck knows.....

Perhaps, i shouldn't but too much of my personal feelings on it. If i never built up the bond then i will never get hurt.

LESSON OF THE YEAR - DO NOT TRUST ANYONE IN BUNKER

Gonna tell myself this.... WELCOME TO BUNKER!! After a year i am here.... wtf~!! After all.... im still upset about this T_T

After long silence

When i wrote my last post 7 months ago, it's only few months i joined bunker industry. Now is coming to a year and i'm still struggling, learning and enjoying here. It's just like a story book with endless climax for me. Is a good sign i guess, at least i don't feel bored and wanted to leave yet.

I didn't really look at my blog since then and i feel totally weird-ed out when i read my previous entries. I feel like i was a different person back then with so much of freedom and dreams. Now its all about trading, operating, marketing, socializing and making money for company wtf. However, i have decided to pick up my blog again. Because it does help me to think and remind me who am i, the real me. Even though there are not many people reading my blog... LOL

Well .......im kinda losing myself for the past one year.I have to admit that my career is making a big changes on me. From nothing to something, simple minded person to someone who over-think for every single thing, unrealistic to realistic, unmaterialistic to materialistic. Please allow me to say this, is quite impossible to stay unchanged with my working environment and also the people that i surrounded with. Is not a good thing for sure, but is not a bad thing either to expose myself and experience the real world when im still "young"? Haha... yes, i consider myself young, always~!

Anyway, i just shifted to Monkey Island 2 weeks ago with Egui. There's a long list of "to be done" agenda waiting for me......sigh~

How long it has to be?

I AM OVER-STRESS!!! 

From job to my personal life, from top to my toe.

How long it has to be? Why never stop one??

Disappointment, worrying, annoying, irritating, heart-broken, sad, unsatisfying, guiltiness, self-blaming..... What else i don't have?

OMG.... can i have a break?

After the loooooooooooooong silent, this is all i can blog about. FML~

New job, New life, New challenge

Never expect my new job can be so busy and time consuming. Started my job for a week but i never back home on time, some more there's no overtime claim for my company T_T Work until 7-8pm daily is a must for my current position. Travel to Singapore once a week or once every two weeks also a must for me. Travel like this is tiring though, but i do learn a lot from my new job and i don't mind to travel if im going to gain knowledge and experience for my future. 


Im actually starting to like my job. To be honest it might be a possibility for me to become a workaholic. But then..... i foresee there're some problems going to occur. Problems between me and my relationship, friendships and family. I seriously wouldn't have much time for each of them and i wish i have. At this moment, i don't know how to get a balance between career and life or i should say i don't know where's the point of balance. 


Just the first week i already didn't have time to meet up or call or text Xiamigui, left my dearest roommie alone at home and my mum screamed at me over the phone =[ How la??? I lagi not dare to think about the future weeks! True to be told for now i just follow instruction from my boss, wish that i could plan my own schedule after my probation period. Anyway, i wish that i think too much and there won't be any problems occur. 


Between, im glad to have Xiamigui as he's very supportive and understanding. We made a deal that i can fully concentrate on my career for 3 years, go wherever i want and do whatever i like to earn more money (money always come first....haha). Weekends will try my best to accompany him. After 3 years i will have to settle down instead of traveling like this (Alternative: he travels like this with me....lol). Can i make a deal with my mum and friends too?? Back to Kuantan twice a year (i think mum will kill me)? Hangout with my bestie at least once a month (but i like to hangout with my friends ler....sob sob)? 


Wish me all the best la >_<

I'm Leavin'

Suddenly have the urge to sing..............

Hey stupid BOSS, I've been hating you all day
Man that thing you got behind us is disgusting
You make me want to punch and hit you in your face
I know you are the boss but this is what I should say


That I'm LEAVIN'.......... never to come back again
You won't find someone who does it better than I can
No more making you laugh, no more bright skies
Boss I'm flyin on the G5 G5


And I'm LEAVIN' never to come back again
So call your Theresline and tell her to find a new staff
The one might so so fly
The one might keep you "high"
Have you singing all night night night


Oh oh oh
Yeah
Man i'm gone be singin
Oh oh oh oh


Don't stress don't stress don't stress
I'm telling you to the left left left
Don't stress don't stress don't stress
Cause I gone & I gone & I gone
No stress no stress no stress
Yes I deserve nothing but the best
No stress no stress no stress
Yes I need to tell him....

That I'm LEAVIN'.......... never to come back again

You won't find someone who does it better than I can

No more making you laugh, no more bright skies

Boss I'm flyin on the G5 G5

And I'm LEAVIN' never to come back again

So call your Theresline and tell her to find a new staff

The one might so so fly

The one might keep you "high"

Have you singing all night night night

Oh oh oh

Yeah

Man i'm gone be singin

Oh oh oh oh

18 February 2011

Who is this??! Gave me this kind of face on my birthday dinner!! Bu shuang is it?!! HAHA =D

XiamiGui always had funny funny face expression in front of camera. LOL~

We had our dinner at Chili's Grill & Bar Restaurant, one of my favorite restaurant. 

My medium rare lamb chop. I love it!! It's very juicy.

XiamiGui had honey "don't know what" chicken. 

Sorry for my short-term memory =P

It's tasty too!

いただきます!

itadakimasu!

Nom Nom Nom!

Baskin-Robbins ice-cream cake was waiting me at home with the dry ais.

Fasu-fasu rushed home after dinner before it melts. 

 Mango ice-cream with chocolate cake, my very first ice-cream birthday cake.

Thanks XiamiGui for the birthday celebration.....Muackss!

Next..... is Pressies from the one who loves me...... 

 Hand-made roses, card and also the gift box from XiamiGui. 

 The roses took him one hour plus to make everyone of it.

Gobsmackingly PRETTY!! 

I received hand-made card for almost all the important days from XiamiGui.

Can I say he has the BLOOD of art? LOL~

Only certain people will get my joke >_< 

Lalala~

Starbucks RM50 voucher from ShinD and Lulu.

Love you girls!

Now i can slowly hunt for my Starbucks tumbler yay! 

My wish list ---> Checked 1

Well..... I stole got this hotplate from my home at Kuantan. My mum bought it long time ago but never use it. So it's consider my b'day pressie!! ---> Checked 2

G-String from P Shuang. 

Her sister purposely helped her to deliver this all along from UK to Malaysia, *touch*

I might just keep it for collection =)

Ang Paw from my parents! Inside got how much $$$... i won't tell. Blek!

Lastly.....thanks ShinD, Lulu & Peng Sok for the celebration at Genting and also brought me to My Elephant Thai Restaurant for dinner! 

I enjoyed my birthday a lot =]

Welcome to the world of 25 to ME!!! 

Eh wait.... where's my tweet from Jay Chou??!! I haven't receive geh??