Super FRUSTRATING~!!!
Yesterday someone just sms me out of the blue saying that "ur life seems not bad huh, until totally forget about me"
I was like "huh?? where got?"
The she continued "i text u when i was in the hospital, but end up no reply since then"
I was struggled in my mind, sound familiar but couldn't remember at all. So i faster checked my whatsapp and...... SHIT~!!! there's a whatsapp from her saying that she was in hospital!! HOW COULD I NOT REMEMBER AND NEVER REPLY?!! At the moment i hate myself to the max cause what kind of friend i am. Therefore i apologized and apologized and apologized.... of course came out with all sort of excuses also la =P
Me "owh sorry.... paiseh~ I was on duty that week busy til no time pee ar.... (In fact, this always happened, never lie) After that really forget jor.....sorry la, don't mad.....so how was it? now recover le?"
Her replied " Nvm la, at lease i know where is my position now. Recovered, it has been 2 weeks ago so im recovered."
Then i continued apologized "sorry la, my mistake =(
Was really busy and stress up by work til last weekend had a short break then only ok abit. Ok.... i know is not an excuse.....sorry la.....sayang sayang back k?"Then i felt something not right? Even a hi-bye friend telling me that he/she not feeling well i also will send my regards la. How could i forget about her? So i re-checked the whatsapp. Then i found out the whatsapp was sent at 3am!!!
Hello~!!! Who the hell can remember what i read at the middle of then on my half way of beauty sleep then the next day can remember clearly de?? Don't mention that i was on duty and already not enough sleep and worry about my schedule?? Anyway.... forgot means forgot so i know partly is my fault also.
Me "u sent me that time is 3am ler, i woke up read liao slept back, the next day really couldn't remember ar. but i never forget u la"
Her "is fine"
Me "=( "
Her "Because we really have diversion after uni, couldnt blame if it doesnt works well, people are growing n heading to different directions."
Me "walao..... how come sounds lesbian to me?? eh, don't like that ler (thought that she's REALLY FINE le) "
Her "Best friend won't stay as well, i accepted the fact"
Me "Zzzzzzzzzzzz.....don't think too much la. Im busy here and we have different direction doesn't mean we cannot be best friend de ma"
Her "Topic ended"
Me "What??"
Her "Wasting time to discuss this as both of us are so busy. Anyway is good to know u are safe and alive, gtg"
Me "Alright, u take care. Really sorry about that"
I'm now hating myself for saying sorry again in the last msg..... for what??!! Apologizes were not accepted also. How sarcastic a person can be?? Gosh~!!! Out of so many hours in a day, why must you came out with this conversation at my busiest hour, trading time. You know that i was busy that time~!! Can u imagine how frustrated i was after going through all these??
Best part is..... my day ended with something interesting. A coursemate who never meet for years and not so close with marine family told me that she actually complained me to him OFTEN back in uni. Just happened that we had coffee session last night. What a day!!
Honest speaking, i can understand if u mad at me for not replying your 3am's whatsapp especially when u are not feeling well and u need a friend to stay with u. But is there a need to end the conversation that way?? After my.... let me count.... FOUR TIMES OF SAYING SORRY? If u are insisting with your "sorry is no cure" philosophy, please go ahead.
